For most of my life I felt worthy of a good life. Sure, I messed up. I made mistake but for the most part, I was a good person. I felt like I deserved to be treated right, by my friends and furture husband but I did not feel like I was that attractive. I used to cake my face in layers of make up to hide the ache underneath! (I'm almost positive the make-up is what caused the acne...). I would wear baggy clothes and feel emberristed to wear tight dresses.
In High-school, my family when to Maui, HI. This was the everyones "sinior trip" and my first time flying. I was SO excited. I remmeber finding the cutest bikkni. It was gray and pink. I couldn't wait to wear it! As soon as our flight touched ground we headed staight for hotel and then the pool. I pulled out another swim suit because I was saving that gray one for the beach! The next day we wokeup and headed straight for the beach. It was everything I had ever imaigned. The warm sand and sunny breeze. Magnificent. (Nothing like Californias water.)
Self-esteem is what we think and feel and believe about ourselves. Self-Worth is recognizing "I am greater than all of those things". It is a deep knowing that I am of value, that I am loveable, necessary to this life, and of incomprehensible worth. Self-esteem doesn't last or work without self-worth.
On the flip side, self-worth doesn't work without self-esteem. They are two different things that work so well together.
Maui 2015, You can't see my face but I think I looked pretty good, even though I felt like a beached whale. 115 pounds.
Hawaii 2019 Loving my body as it is! I mean I felt sexy in this picture!